On Consciousness
'Learning
how to learn' involves seeing to begin with that there are real experiences and
then there are words and concepts. You can talk about mind or you can experience
it. If you experience it, you may speak from experience, but if you don't experience
it, all you have is words, like the shadows on Plato's cave wall.
So, recall
Wilber's nondualism, and Krishnamurti's awakening of intelligence. See, directly,
in front of you, Rinzai's solitary shining brightness, the light of consciousness:
that is Mind. As soon as you begin to chop up immediate experience into concepts,
into subject, object, observer and observed, beholder and beheld, this wholeness
of mind is lost; he who knows cannot speak, he who speaks cannot know, the two
states are exclusive, they must be transcended, to become the knower who does
not know, and the speaker who does not speak. I know, but don't know that I know;
speak but don't know what I am saying, the words are darts of light, scribbled
squiggles from an airy hand that don't really reflect what I am experiencing,
like the painted ocean which isn't a bit wet. Only my faith (which is knowledge
that I do not know) that this ocean is within you emboldens me to speak at all.
When the children's mother calls for the young ones to leave the sandbox to
return home for the evening meal, the children drop their games instantly and
forget them entirely. Moments before they may have been strenuously arguing, empassioned
about some road or tunnel which trespasses on their castle grounds, but all is
left behind without a thought when it is time to go. Death is this way, or sleep,
or samadhi (deep meditation); all our cares vanish, meaningless, things once seemingly
so important. If we can penetrate to the core of life, to this primordial consciousness
which hasn't chopped everything into rigid and instinctive categories (food, friends,
foes, family, etc), then we are at the threshhold of true living, and clear seeing,
'with the simple stature of a child.'
This consciousness is never far from
you, it is the base consciousness of every experience. As we focus on the philosophy
and psychology and biology of consciousness and spirituality, try at all times
to remember that direct seeing is the only real learning. Everything else we study
is solely designed to remove prejudices and eliminate confusion, to see how empty
all of our ideas are so we may leam to trust the support of the ocean around us.
It's a matter of being present when you think, not of trying to stop yourself
from thinking, just as it involves not being attached to feelings rather than
attempting to suppress feelings. Enlightened people are very passionate (and also
think a lot); because they are not always restraining themselves, they let themselves
go. They trust their being to organize itself, to learn naturally with all the
rich resonance of immediate experience, and without the dry and boring rote learning
of ancient lessons.
This 'being present' is called 'mindfulness' by Buddhists,
and they practice meditation to attain it. Unfortunately for most of them, this
'meditation' becomes an end in itself, something to 'practice.' But it is mindfulness
they should practice, not meditation, which is just a technique, not a 'practice.'
Between the wordless essential world and everyday reality is the instinctive
programming, the world of archetypes. We can peer into the world of archetypes
and determine our fate, and adjust to it. This is the world of dreams, of Alice
Underground, the sweet space when we are drifting off far enough into sleep for
all our cares to lift and still are conscious, self-aware. These dreams can give
us insight, predict the future, provide accurate judgments, and generally enable
us to walk that razor's edge between being and consciousness, dim-witted fools
though we may be.
This is the real beginning. Of teaching you how to read,
how to read reality, to see the archetypical building blocks with which you construct
your world, "the" world. This involves using images which exist at a
deeper level than words; where words describe (and can lie), archetypes construct
the reality we see, and 'seeing is believing.' This reality can be deconstructed
as well, and reassembled (closer to the Heart's Desire, of course).
The first
step is through the gates of heaven, the Masculine and the Feminine principles,
Heaven and Earth, the Creative and the Receptive, Consciousness and Being. Can
you see how all the world is compounded of these opposites, like black and white
pictures gain all their significance from contrasts?
Being conscious is itself
a sacrifice (hex 17 line 3). Knowing that indulging the ego is futile as a way
of achieving happiness is a sacrifice. Love is a sacrifice, but it is a sacrifice
that is no sacrifice at all.
Terry Murphy 