The Good, Beautiful, And True
Is In Us
By Thich Nhat Hanh
© Thich Nhat Hanh
Dear
friends, today is the 20th of November 1997, we are in the New Hamlet. There is
a French writer whose name is Antoine de Saint Exupéry. He said that to
love each other doesn't mean we sit and look at each other, but it means we both
look in the same direction. We have to look deeply to see whether in our experience
this is true or not, and if it's true, to what degree it is true. When we love
each other, we have a natural tendency to look at each other. Because each one
of us has lacks, needs, desires. We want beauty we are thirsty for beauty. We
respect and look up to truth, and we are thirsty for truth. We are thirsty for
sincerity. So we are looking for something sacred, something beautiful, something
good, and something wholesome. And then we will feel we don't lack, and we will
feel less lonely, at a loss.
The beautiful, the true and the good which we
look for is something we look for in a person, and we think that there are few
people who have that thing. But we have a wrong perception. Because sometimes
the beauty we think is real beauty is not true beauty. The truth is not real truth
and we think it's real truth. And the wholesome, we think it is true, but it's
not real goodness. So if we are basing on our wrong perception then our love can
arise based on that wrong perception. And when we have lived with that person
for a period of time, we discover that we have failed. Because that person is
not able to symbolize for us the beautiful, good, and true that we were looking
for and we say that person has deceived us, and we suffer. And then we go and
look for a second object.
Every one of us in the beginning feels that we lack
something, that we are only half a person. And we wander around in this world
to look for our other half. We're like a saucepan that hasn't got a lid, and we're
always going looking for our lid. That is why we feel we lack the other person.
But if we observe carefully, we see that this feeling of lack arises from a wrong
perception. We have an inferiority complex that the true, the good, and the beautiful
do not exist in us. That is a very deep complex in every one of us. We have a
perception that we are not worthy. No truth, no beauty, no goodness is in us.
And there is no way that we can have confidence in ourselves. We don't say these
things, but it is what we feel. We feel that we haven't any beauty, goodness and
truth.
But we always want to do something in order to have these things. And
so we feel that we are deceiving people. We are showing other people that we are
good, that we are beautiful, but we feel that we are only showing that on the
outside. In ourselves, we are not really beautiful, not really good. And so we
go and look for different cosmetics in order to adorn ourselves. We go to shops
which sell cosmetics, and we buy powder, we buy lipstick and we put it on our
lips. Or we use some kind of operation to make us look more beautiful, like a
facelift. This is to do with our body. But as far as our soul, our spirit, our
mind is concerned, we can go and learn more philosophy, more science to have more
knowledge, or we can go and study religion. We go and study with this master,
then we go to that master. And we also make it look as if we have virtue, that
we love others. As far as physical appearance is concerned, we can adorn ourselves,
with cosmetics, make ourselves look beautiful. And as far as our mind, our spirit
is concerned we can also find cosmetics to adorn our mind, because we want people
when they look at us to see us as something good and beautiful and true. And we
deceive each other.
In this world, on this earth we are deceiving each other.
Deep down we feel there is nothing good, beautiful and true in us. But on the
other hand, we are trying to show people all the time the good, beautiful, and
true that we are. And so we deceive ourselves from generation to generation. And
when we are deceiving others, we are also being deceived by others. We are each
other's victims. We are all deceiving each other, we are all trying to make ourselves
up so we will look less ugly, and at the same time others are doing the same.
Sitting
at the foot of the bodhi tree on the night when he realized the truth, the Buddha
discovered something, which is very surprising to him and to us. He saw that the
good, the beautiful and the true are to be found in everyone. But very few people
know that. People think that the true, the beautiful, and the good exist somewhere
else it is in someone else. They do not know that in the deep levels of themselves
there is the true, the beautiful, and the good. And because we are not able to
be in touch with these things, the good, the beautiful, and the true, in ourselves,
we have the feeling that we lack something, that we are a saucepan without a lid.
And the whole of our life we are looking for someone else to replace that lack.
How strange, all living beings have the fully awakened nature, but none of them
know it. And because of that they drift and sink from lifetime to lifetime in
the great ocean of samsara, in suffering. And that is what the Buddha said the
moment when he realized the path.
And so when we are able to recognize that
in us there is the essence of the good, the beautiful and the true, we will be
able to stop going in search. We will stop feeling that we lack something and
we will stop running around in the world, in the universe looking for something.
The truth is that we return to ourselves in order to be in touch with the good,
beautiful and true that are in us. And at the moment we are in touch with those
things, we are able to stop wandering around feeling we lack something. And we
are able to stop deceiving others. We don't have to adorn ourselves, make ourselves
up anymore, because we have discovered the true, the beautiful, and the good right
here within us.
Like a wave on the ocean. It feels that it is fragile, that
it is ugly; the other waves are more beautiful, more high, with more value. It
has an inferiority complex, the complex that it's not worth anything. But when
this wave is able to be in touch with its true nature, which is the water, it
sees that water goes beyond all concepts of beautiful, ugly, high, low, here and
there. Whether it's a large wave or a small wave, half a wave or a third of a
wave, it is still made out of water. Once it knows that it is water, it has a
very strong faith that it has absolute value because water is without birth and
without death. A wave is really only water, and as far as water is concerned,
all waves are equal because all waves are water. So everyone who lives in this
world-- women, men, rich, poor, intellectual, those who have been disabled, those
whose body is in good health-- they all have this basis of good, beautiful and
true. Just as the small wave, the big wave, the high wave, the low wave, all waves
are equal, wholly equal as far as water is concerned, as far as their true nature
is concerned.
When we are looking for someone to love and we find that
person, we are very happy because we feel we have found our lid, the lid of our
saucepan. We are happy because we think that the person we have discovered has
the true, the good and the beautiful in them. There is a song: "You are as
gentle as a nun..." But it's not so sure that a nun is gentle. When you have
lived with that person for a short time, you see that that person is quite fierce,
not gentle at all, and not beautiful and not wholesome like you thought before.
And then we no longer have faith in our lid. We say the other person is deceiving
us, they have deceived us into thinking they are good, beautiful, and true. But
we have already written the contract and we are caught with that person, and we
have a lot of irritation, and we have a feeling that we have been deceived. And
it is very painful for us to have to live with that person. We want to divorce
them and go and live with somebody else. And we feel like that our whole life.
We never feel we have found the good, the beautiful and the true in the other.
Because everyone wants to adorn themselves with good, beautiful and true in order
to show others that we have those things, which the other is looking for. But
we don't really believe ourselves that we have those things, and that is where
our suffering starts from. We don't have faith that we have the things we are
showing others we have. And we are looking for those things in another, and then
we feel we've been deceived just as we deceive others. And so we fall into the
same situation, the one who looks and the one who is looked for. After we have
failed many times, we have felt tired of this person; we feel they don't have
the essence we are looking for.
Then we go and look for a religious teacher.
And when we find a religious teacher, we kneel before him, and we feel we have
found our real lid. But there are many religious teachers who are fake, many religious
teachers who do not have faith in the goodness, truth and beauty in themselves
but try to show others that they have beauty, goodness and truth. So there are
disciples, students, who after a time of learning with that teacher, discover
he hasn't got the things they were looking for in him. There's not something really
beautiful, something really true, something really good in that person. So we
abandon that teacher and we go and look for another one. And if we continue like
that, we are constantly throughout our life looking for someone.
Then one day
we meet a very special religious teacher. And that religious teacher says, "Don't
go looking anymore, don't go seeking anymore, don't keep looking outside of your
anymore, because within you the thing you are looking for is already there."
And that teacher is our root teacher. Our root teacher tells us: "All living
beings have the pure, clear, complete nature within themselves." And everyone
has to return to themselves in order to be in touch properly with that beautiful,
good and true which is within them. And when you have been in touch with it, you
will put an end to your going in search and there will be a steady faith that
you have happiness, you have peace. And this searching, which has been going on
for so many lifetimes will come to an end.
The World Honored One is a religious
teacher who doesn't want us to be slaves the whole of our life. He doesn't want
people to just lean on him. So the Buddha is a special teacher. He says that:
"You have what you are looking for within yourself." So a real religious
teacher, someone who is worthy of being called a religious teacher, is a teacher
who has the capacity to show us that in our own nature there is a teacher we can
return to and take refuge in. And we don't have to look for this teacher outside
of ourselves. And that is a teaching, which is very basic to Buddhism. That the
beautiful, the wholesome, and the absolute good are present in ourselves, and
we only need to return and be in touch with them. You need to have faith in the
basic goodness, the basic beauty, and the basic truth, which is in you. You have
to go back to yourself and discover that. It is your own ground of being. It is
your basis.
When we look at the person we love, we need to begin to look with
these eyes. We look at the person sitting in front of us, and we say: "This
person has the basic goodness, the basic truth, and the basic beauty, but that
person doesn't believe in those things, and that person is using cosmetics to
adorn themselves for us." And we are the same. We do not believe in the good,
beautiful and true, which is in us, but we are putting on cosmetics to adorn ourselves
for the other person. And when we can do that, then real love begins to arise
in us. We say to the other, "Let's not live in this narrow way anymore. Let's
both return to our own basis. Let's not deceive each other anymore." We don't
need to deceive each other because the thing we are looking for is already there
in us, and we have to become friends on the path of the practice. And that path
of practice is not to lead us on an outer search but to lead us on an inner search.
Ánanda
was the cousin of the Buddha. One day he was going on the alms round. He stopped
at a well because he was thirsty in order to ask for some water. Sitting by the
well was a young woman called Matanga. She belonged to the pariah class, the untouchable
caste. The higher castes were not able to touch her or come near to her on the
path because she would pollute them. When the higher castes are going on the road
and they see an untouchable, they have to keep out of their way so as not to be
polluted. And when Ánanda asked for water, she said, "No, I can't
give it to you because I am an untouchable and it will pollute you." And
Ánanda said, "In our teaching, there is not a caste division and the
Buddha has told us that we are all equal, and therefore you can give me water,
I won't be polluted, so don't be afraid." Matanga was very happy. She lifted
the water with a ladle and gave it to him to drink. He joined his palms and thanked
her and went home. But after that Matanga started to fall in love with him. She
couldn't sleep, she couldn't eat, because she kept seeing Ánanda, how beautiful,
how good, how kind he was. Matanga was very beautiful. Her father had passed away
she lived with her mother. And when her mother saw she couldn't sleep or eat for
many weeks, she asked why. The girl wept and said because she is always thinking
about Ánanda. And because the mother loved her daughter very much, she
did her best to help her daughter. So they decided together to invite Ánanda
to come and to make offerings to him. And one day they met Ánanda as he
was going on the alms round, and they invited him to come to them so they could
make offerings. And when he came into the house, they gave him a bowl of tea.
But that tea was made of a kind of herb, which would take away our clarity when
we drank it. And if we lack our clarity, we can do things we don't want to do.
When Ánanda had drunk this tea, he felt he had made a mistake and he didn't
know how he was going to put it right. When he saw what had happened, he knew
that he had to practice. So he didn't say anything, he didn't do anything. He
sat in the cross-legged position, and he began to follow the practice of following
his breathing, because he knew he was in a very dangerous position. And the Buddha
was in the Jeta Grove and wondered why Ánanda had not returned. So he ordered
two other monks to go and look for Ánanda. And the other two monks were
able to find Ánanda sitting in meditation in the house of Matanga. They
led him back to the Jeta Grove Monastery. And they saw Matanga weeping so they
also brought her back to the monastery. When Ánanda came back to the monastery
the effect of the tea was already wearing off, and he prostrated to the Buddha,
and he thanked the Buddha for sending the two monks to send him back because it
could have been very dangerous if they hadn't. And then Matanga came in, and the
Buddha asked Matanga to sit down. And he said, "Do you love Ánanda
so much?" And Matanga said, "Yes, I love him very much." And Buddha
said, "What do you love in Ánanda? Do you love his eyes or his nose?"
"I love his eyes, I love his nose, I love his ears, I love his mouth, I love
everything. Everything to do with Ánanda, I love. I think I cannot live
if I don't have Ánanda." She was a very beautiful girl although she
belonged to the untouchable caste. She was quite naive too; she was about 18 or
19 years old. The Buddha said, "There are many things in Ánanda which
you have not seen and which you would love even more if you could see them."
And she said, "What?" And Buddha smiled and said, "Like Ánanda's
love, like Ánanda's bodhicitta. All you've seen is eyes, nose, ears, mouth.
As a young man, he has given up his life in a wealthy family in order to become
a monk, with the aim of helping many people. Ánanda could never be happy
with one or two people because that happiness is so small. That is why he became
a monk. He wants to be able to help many, many people. He has a mind of great
equality. He wants to love, but not love one person. He wants to love thousands
and thousands of people. And that bodhicitta of Ánanda is very beautiful;
if only you could see it you would love Ánanda even more. And once you
had seen that you wouldn't want to make Ánanda your own anymore. You would
respect Ánanda, and you would do everything you could to help Ánanda
realize his deep aspiration as a monk, to help him realize the bodhicitta. Ánanda
is like a cool breeze in the air, and if you love that cool breeze in the air
and you want to put it into a small box and put the lid on and turn the key, then
you will not have that cool breeze in the air anymore. Ánanda is like a
cloud floating in the sky, the blue sky, very beautiful. If you want to catch
that cloud and put it in a box and turn the key, then you will kill Ánanda,
because you have only seen the things about Ánanda, which are not the most
beautiful things. You have not seen the most beautiful things about Ánanda.
If you were to see them you would love him more, and you would love him in a way,
which would help him be Ánanda, just as you can help a cloud be a cloud
floating in the beautiful blue sky. Don't think that Ánanda is the only
one who has that beautiful aspiration. You are the same. You have that beauty
too. You can also live like Ánanda if you really love Ánanda and
you are able to see the bodhicitta of Ánanda. You will be able to return
to yourself and see you have the bodhicitta in yourself, and you can vow to Ánanda
that you will live in such a way not just to make one person happy but to make
many people happy."
When Matanga heard that, she was very surprised. She
said, "I don't have any worth. I belong to the lowest caste. I cannot make
anybody happy." He said, "Yes, you have already done it. You already
have that beautiful, good and true in yourself. Everyone has that. And if we return,
and we are able to be in touch with that basic goodness, truth and beauty in ourselves
we will have faith in it, and we will know that we can make happiness for many
people." And when she heard that, she said, "Is that really so? Can
I really do the same as Ánanda? Can I really leave the family life, become
a nun and help thousands of people like Ánanda?" And the Buddha said,
"Yes, why not? If you can be in touch with the true, good and beautiful in
you, and you give rise to the bodhicitta you will be like Ánanda, you will
be able to do like Ánanda and bring happiness to many people. " Her
insight was opened by the Buddha, and she touched the earth before the Buddha,
and she asked to become a nun under a Bhiksunis so that she could do like Ánanda,
so that her love could open up and become wide, become measureless. From then
on Matanga was accepted into the Bhiksunis Sangha which was led by Maha Gautami.
And
that is Buddha's method. In the first place people are infatuated by an image,
which they say is beautiful, and they want to be a possessor of that image, and
they suffer because of that. But afterwards they wake up and they see that this
is deceptive, and they put away that image and they look for another object. And
then they wander the whole of their life, from lifetime to lifetime, not able
to find the real object of their love. The Buddha showed people that when we are
able to come across someone who has a steady faith in their own goodness, beauty
and truth, we can look at that person as a mirror in order to return to ourselves
and be in touch with the basic goodness, beauty and truth in ourselves. And then
we will be happy; we will be able to put an end to our wandering. And like the
other person, we can become someone who loves all species, not the one object
of love of one person. And we become someone who serves others. We become an associate
lover with the other. The Buddha is someone who loves all species and his action
is the action of love. That is all he does in his life, and he rescues beings
all his life. And when we see the beauty of the Buddha, the goodness of the Buddha,
the truth of the Buddha, when we hear the Buddha say that you also have that goodness,
beauty, and truth and if you can go back to yourself, you will find it, then you
can become an associate of mine and together we will use our love to help others
suffer less.
Love is not a matter of two people loving each other but a matter
of collective love. When we enter the monk-hood or nun-hood, it is because we
want to love others. And the object of our love, of course, is ourselves and is
all species. That is why we have the expression "associate lovers."
Buddha is someone who loves, and the Buddha's love is so great, so beautiful we
want to take part in that love. We want to be a participator in that love. And
the Buddha says, "Yes, why can't you participate in that love? Why don't
we become lovers together?" And we take the hand of the Buddha, like teacher
and disciple, and we love each other but we love all species, so we and the Buddha
are associate lovers. When we are participators in the Sangha, we are associate
lovers. We protect ourselves, we protect each other, we give faith to each other,
and we bring to others our transformation and their transformation when they are
in touch with us.
In the time of the Buddha, there was a monk whose name was
Vaikali. After Vaikali became a monk, he became very attached to the Buddha, but
his love was narrow, just superficial. He saw the Buddha as something like a realm
of light. When he sat near the Buddha, he felt very happy, and that's all he wanted.
He didn't really listen deeply or carefully to the dharma talks. He just spent
his time looking at the Buddha, gazing at the Buddha. He felt so peaceful, so
happy, so content sitting by the Buddha. But he could only see the small beauty
of the Buddha. He didn't see the great wisdom, the great love of the Buddha. And
after a time, when the Buddha had been looking at him, the Buddha saw that this
disciple was still very weak. Wherever he was, he just wanted to be with the Buddha.
Wherever he sat, he just wanted to sit near the Buddha. He was attached to the
Buddha, but he was just attached to the shadow of the Buddha, not to the real,
deep level of the Buddha. Then the Buddha decided he wouldn't allow Vaikali to
be near him anymore. If he was going to the Jeta Monastery, he wouldn't allow
Vaikali to go with him. And he did not allow him to be his attendant, he said,
"Now another monk will be my attendant." So he felt the Buddha had thrown
him off, that the Buddha didn't love him. And when he had been refused by the
Buddha, he felt like committing suicide. The Buddha knew that this was happening
so he tried to find a way to save him. And when he was about to commit suicide,
the Buddha came and said, "What are you doing?" And he gave teachings
to Vaikali. And that is when he learned that his love was not the deep love of
a monk but a superficial attachment. After that, he practiced properly. The Buddha
showed him that in his own self, deep down, there was the beautiful, the good
and true, and he should be looking for that instead of running out after an image
of good, beautiful and true outside of him. The Buddha said he always did that
himself and he taught others to do that. A good religious teacher is someone who
can show us that in our own self we have a religious teacher, and we have to take
refuge in that religious teacher in ourselves and we should not be attached to
a religious teacher outside of us. Because that religious teacher outside of us
may not be true, may be a fake. And if he is a true teacher he will always encourage
us to go back to ourselves, to be in touch with the true teacher within ourselves.
The best teacher is the teacher who can help you to see that there is a real teacher
within yourself. We take refuge in that teacher within ourselves, and then we
will never be disappointed. If a wave has faith in its nature of water, then the
wave will never be disappointed. When we read: "I go back and take refuge
in the Buddha in myself, and I vow that all beings may be in touch with the awakened
nature and quickly realize the love which is called bodhicitta" -that love
in which teacher and disciple are working together, are serving together, are
associate lovers- this shows us our path, those two lines of the sutra show us
the path.
The real object of our love is not outside of us, the real object
of our love is ourselves. We have to know how to love ourselves, know how to return
to our true nature, to see the wholesome, the good, the true and the beautiful
within us. Then we will be able to see that in others. When we have seen real
beauty, goodness, and truth in ourselves and others, we will no longer be deceived
by the outer adornments. When we see the people in the world are deceiving each
other, we feel compassion and we pray that one day they may wake up and find the
object of their search within themselves. And when we have found that object of
our search in ourselves, we will help others, and we will stop our wandering from
one lifetime to another.
We can begin by looking deeply at inter-being. The
thing, which we say is beautiful, may not be beautiful, but we think it is beautiful.
The thing that we say is true maybe it is not true, but we have thought it is
true. The thing, which we say is wholesome, is kind may not be true kindness,
but we think it is true kindness. Therefore, we should use the looking deeply
of the Buddha and see that the true goodness contains the true beauty and the
true truth. That is inter-being. When we see that, we will discover quickly that
the object we thought was beautiful is not really beautiful because it does not
contain goodness and truth. And once we know it is a fake, it will not appear
beautiful to us anymore. Truth is always beautiful. Kindness is always beautiful.
And beauty is always true, is always kind. When we love someone we have the duty
to look at that person in such a way that our look is not caught in wrong perceptions,
perverted perceptions, so that we can see the real beauty, the real truth, the
real goodness of that person and not be deceived by the outer form. We should
be able to see that the other is basically beautiful, basically good and true
and does not need to disguise themselves with artificial means. So please, you
don't need to deceive yourself and deceive me anymore with outer adornments. I
am also like that. I have the basic goodness, truth and beauty, so I don't need
to adorn myself to deceive people anymore. Let us be associate lovers in order
to be in touch with the beauty, goodness, and truth within ourselves, and we will
be able to help ourselves and help numberless other people. That is the path of
the Buddha. Whether we are a monk or a nun or not a monk or a nun, we have to
see this and we have to stop deceiving ourselves and deceiving others and allowing
others to deceive us. So we must stop deceiving others and allowing others to
deceive us. It is because we don't know that we have the good, the beautiful and
true in us that we feel we lack something. When we feel we lack something, we
feel we're just a half, we are isolated, we need to find our other half. When
we have seen that the thing we are looking for is within us, the feeling of isolation
will end and we will begin to feel happy, that is the great awakening. And once
we are awakened like that we will understand what the Buddha meant when he said
on the day he realized awakening, "How strange, all living beings have the
basic nature of awakening, of happiness, of truth, but they don't know it."
And because of that, from lifetime to lifetime, they continue drifting and sinking
on the ocean of birth and death.
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