by Lama Ole Nydahl
When people speak of
bardo they usually think of the time after death. The term, however, reaches
further. It refers to any "intermediate state." All beings experience
such intermediate states their entire lives until enlightenment, when mind recognizes
its own timeless clear light. Right now at this lecture for instance, we are
in the bardo of being awake - at least I hope so. We communicate with symbols
and words, and perceive the world through our senses. At nighttime the bardo
is that of sleep, of darkness and a lack of consciousness. To those lucky ones
who know the clear light meditation very well, the experience is that of lying
in an ocean of light.
There are also periods when stored impressions come up in different ways, such
as in dreams. This is called the bardo of dreaming, and it probably includes
most drug-induced conditions. Then we wake up again and resume waking consciousness.
Evidently, everything mentioned so far is conditioned and changing and can be
of no lasting help to beings. If we meditate, however, a state comes forth which
is in essence timeless clear light, an awareness which is not dependent on anything.
It is beyond birth and death, without coming or going. All Diamond Way practices
aim to make radiant awareness always present. While alive, beings, both humans
and animals, move between the three above bardos, waking, sleeping, or dreaming.
At death, three further bardos appear.
First, comes the process of dying itself. Whether death is quick or slow there
is a transformation. Afterwards, a period follows wherein mind continues its
habitual flow from the previous life. After recognizing that one is actually
dead, a process of restructuring takes place and, depending on the dominant
state, mind enters a new realm among the six levels of existence. This has always
been so. In the same way that space is without beginning, mind also has no starting
point. Outside as inside it has constantly been playing, expressing and experiencing
its richness in countless ways. These six bardos have always alternated; the
three daily ones and the three which follow when non-liberated beings move into
their next life.
You came here this evening in order to know the latter. In order to understand
what happens at death, we need to first look at mind. In its essence mind is
space. It has neither color, weight, smell nor size. It is not made of anything;
it was not born; it will not die. It has not come from anywhere, so it will
not go away. This space, however, is not a black hole. It neither implies disappearance,
nor non-existence. Its nature is rich. It plays, expresses itself, dreams, lets
things happen and then dissolves them again. It has great power and is at the
same time unlimited. Wherever we look, there is no ending to it - always more
things can happen. As this recognition dawns, no conditioned feeling can match
it, and fearlessness, spontaneous joy and active, unsentimental and far-reaching
compassion come naturally. If that were beings' constant state, if we were always
aware of mind itself, everything would be easy. Then dying and being reborn
would be like changing clothes. The clear light of mind, its radiant awareness,
and the joy and power of its activity would never stop. Without any breach of
consciousness, and seeing our bodies and speech ever more as tools, we would
freely choose rebirth at places of maximum usefulness to others.
Of course, this is far from most beings' daily experience. Whoever does not
meditate rarely glimpses mind's essence. Then it happens only by chance, such
as in lovemaking or during the free fall before the parachute opens. Whether
its eternal freshness manifests through a continuous process or accidentally,
it is the total certainty and deep joy which appears when one forgets to hope,
fear or to expect. It expresses itself as a love that has few concepts. Instead
of mind's bright light or its more impermanent insights, however, unenlightened
beings identify with its stream of impressions. They seek a lasting essence
in the changing flow produced through their bodies and mental activities.
Though considered to be real, such situations and feelings cannot last. Their
nature is like a river - though new water runs by constantly, there is still
continuity, and people identify with it as a stream of awareness. There is a
causality between a child of seven and the later adult of seventy. Without the
former, there could be no latter, though every particle, every molecule is new.
At a certain point, this process can not be accommodated in the body anymore.
When it can no longer hold the mind, that is death. Death looks very different
whether one dies slowly, like from AIDS or cancer, or if one's body disintegrates
due to stepping on a landmine, or having a high-speed accident. The process
that takes place, however, is the same. Whether it happens in a flash or over
a longer time, the energy which used to be spread over the whole body always
moves towards its central axis. In the great religions of experience, the body
brings forth varying energy systems. They depend on the goal sought, whether
it is formless god states, a balanced long life, or mind's clear light. In Hinduism
it works in the spine, in Taoism in an ellipse through the body, and in Buddhism
the central energy channel lies between a point eight fingers behind the original
hairline on the top of one's head and finishes four fingers below the navel.
From this main energy tube in the center of one's body five different wheels
spread out which branch into 72,000 channels. Being feminine, they are essentially
intuition and space. Inside them lie potential male energies, which are only
fully awakened at enlightenment. Their nature is compassion and joy. During
the process of dying the connection to the outer senses first pulls back toward
the center of one's body and then the five wheels collapse into the central
energy channel. During this process one first loses power. A pressure is felt
on the body and sense impressions become unclear. Then, one's control of the
fluid element goes. One feels as if one is floating in water and drools from
the mouth and nose. Following this one becomes dry, and cold enters from the
extremities. Now, close to death, one's breathing is shallow and harsh and non-meditators
lose the last ability to focus their mind. Depending on one's karma, the impressions
absorbed during one's life, anything may appear, from the wonderful feeling
of joyful meaning experienced after Phowa to states of great loss with fear
and frustration. Here karma may already become very visible. In the end one
takes three very long exhalations - and that is it. Though at this point people
are pronounced dead, during the next 20 to 30 minutes an energy process continues
inside the magnetic axis of the body.
This energy channel appeared when our consciousness from the last life met with
the sperm and egg of our parents. The two cells, whose genetic information supplied
the basis for our present bodies, additionally each carried an energy charge.
In meditation the male essence is experienced as white and the female as red.
As billions of cells formed into our human bodies, the white energy moved upwards
and is now centered around eight fingers behind our original hairline on the
crown of our heads. At the same time the red energy moved down and now rests
four fingers below the navel in the middle of the body. Between these two poles
lies an axis with the above-mentioned wheels and channels. After one stops breathing,
during the following ten to fifteen minutes the white energy loosens its hold
at the top of one's head and moves down towards the heart. On its way down,
a beautiful clear light is experienced, like from the moon, while thirty three
feelings, which have their basis in anger, disappear. Many hear the sound of
a drawn-out HANG syllable and memory is so intense that one frequently sees
beings who have died before one.
After that, a red light rises from the point four fingers below one's navel.
The feeling is very powerful and the light is like a deep sunset. While it moves
up to the heart, also taking ten to fifteen minutes, many hear the deep vibration
AH. Forty feelings of attachment disappear at this point and an indescribable
joy is felt. Twenty to thirty minutes after death these two energies have thus
fused in the center of one's chest and everything becomes black. While this
happens, seven veils deriving from ignorance dissolve.
Then appears a radiant light, totally beyond-personal awareness. If we can hold
that state the meditation is called thugdam. It means that mind is bound at
the heart in a condition which does not separate truth inside and out. Here,
its open, clear and limitless essence pervades all times and directions; this
is the awareness of lamas like Karmapa. It is compared to the meeting of a child
and its mother and, if it can be held, there is real enlightenment. Every separation
between space and energy, as between past, present, and future then falls away.
Whoever cannot hold that state blacks out. The Tibetan Book of the Dead mentions
a period of three to four days of unconsciousness after death. In the case when
dead people have come to me, however, transparent but otherwise looking as they
normally did, it has always been after sixty eight hours. I think it is because
they were all city people and very well educated. Thus their mental processes
were very quick.
When one wakes up after death, there is the feeling that something is fundamentally
wrong. However, even if one's body is preserved, one will avoid looking at it
and instead try to get away. This state is highly confusing because, having
no body, whichever place one thinks of one automatically is there. Also one's
intelligence is so much sharper than when alive and though one can read the
thoughts of the living, one cannot communicate with them. When one sits on a
chair, people sit down on one and when one talks to them, they simply go away.
In spite of so many signs beings do not want to know that they are dead. After
the three days of unconsciousness, a week follows during which people continue
inside the habit-world of their past life. Then, no one can any longer avoid
the realization that they have no physical body. This recognition may solidify
when one stands in front of a mirror and finds no reflection. Some discover
themselves walking on fine sand without leaving any foot prints and others may
put their hands in boiling water and not get burnt. At that moment, mind knows:
"I am now dead, I do not have a body anymore," and this is such a
big shock that one falls unconscious for a second time.
When one wakes up again, mind has moved into a new state. Here, the shared flow
of one's surface consciousness has stopped and one's individual subconscious
impressions surface as very strong experiences. Though they can best be compared
to highly individual dreams, one also holds them to be real and feels hope and
dislike.
While one continues holding on and pushing away as always, over the next not
more than five and a half weeks (so that these three intermediate states are
no longer than seven weeks in all), one's strongest tendency works its way through
mind's other impressions. If no lama or habitual meditation practice is there
to help, these tendencies decide the direction for one's next rebirth. Though
the human realm provides a wide range of karmic possibilities, from the sufferings
of Moslem women and people in Africa, to people in free and luxurious lifestyles
in Western suburbs, also five distinct non-human levels of existence may appear
from mind's stored tendencies.
Three kinds of god realms appear from the feeling of pride. If we have done
good acts but with the feeling that "I am doing something to you,"
they are not liberating but, depending on one's intelligence, they will produce
most pleasant levels of consciousness. Either desires are automatically fulfilled
in the six "desire realms," or esthetic satisfaction in seventeen
"form realms." Highest among gods are those in four conditions of
intense abstraction. As the illusion of a separate self persists in all, however,
once one's stock of positive impressions is exhausted the gods fall and another
feeling surfaces with its corresponding environment. If jealousy manifests as
the main feeling, beings discover themselves in weapon chambers. Formerly, they
looked for swords, but today it would probably be machine guns. They are deeply
disturbed by others enjoying more happiness than themselves. If confusion surfaces
as the strongest disturbance mind may try to hide between rocks and bushes and,
if animals go there to mate, one may run between them. Thus, beings end up with
four paws and a beautiful fur coat both during summer and winter. It is also
possible that greed becomes dominant and already during this life it makes beings
visibly miserable. Though some people have everything, their possessions only
imprison them. After death this general state condenses into a craving for food
and drink. Some then think that their bellies are as big as San Francisco and
their mouths like the eyes of needles. Others experience that any nourishment
becomes fire or that unpleasant spooks take it away from them. Mind's worst
pollution, however, consists of anger and ill will. These mature as the greatest
pain. Today known as paranoia, one traditionally distinguishes eight levels
of pain from heat and eight from cold. In addition, there exists a "neighboring"
and a "sometimes" state.
As already mentioned, desires brought about this present human life and will
continue doing so. But karma is sticky and has lingering effects. After deciding
the realm of rebirth, it furthermore brings about the kind of body we get, into
which environment we are born, and which kind of motivation we live by. As a
human being, however, one has all controls in one's hands. Having a solid body
and being able to know what is useful or brings harm, one may avoid sowing the
seeds for eons of impermanent happiness or deep suffering in the four non-physical
realms or for shorter periods of dullness as animals. Most important is the
realization that this is no alternative to liberation and enlightenment. Gods
fall down again. Half-gods are jealous and fight. Animals eat one another. Ghosts
are always frustrated and hell beings always suffer. Even humans have the four
basic problems of birth, old age, sickness and death. Also, the best years of
one's life are not without the difficulties of getting what one wants, of avoiding
what one doesn't want, of holding on to what one has, and of having to arrange
oneself with what is unavoidable. As this has been going on since beginningless
time it is imperative to find lasting values.
To cut the root of all suffering, Buddha advises us to focus on that which is
beyond birth or death, which has never arisen and will never disappear. He points
not to the pictures but to the mirror itself, shows us the ocean beneath the
waves. No conditioned experience or outer situation can truly satisfy. Only
mind's open, clear, and limitless light is totally blissful and absolute. His
teachings, be it on life, rebirth, and what is in between, aim only to share
this certitude. With the methods of the Diamond Way each of the above-mentioned
after-death bardos become gates to enlightenment. They offer occasions for confronting
mind with its true nature and setting it free.
During the last twelve years Lama Ole Nydahl has taught transference of consciousness,
Phowa, to over 30,000 people around the world. He gave this lecture in San Francisco
during autumn 1998 and later improved the English in Siberia in March 1999.
As soon as his busy schedule permits, he expects to finish a book on the topic.
It will include some methods which Diamond Way Buddhism utilizes to benefit
mind during such momentous situations and also bring comparisons to some insights
of western psychology. He will let us look over his shoulder and evaluate his
reasons for being totally certain of the teachings given.
BUDDHISM TODAY, Vol.6,
1999
Copyright ©1999 Kamtsang Choling USA